Wednesday, November 15, 2023

Missing Pieces

After an absence of nearly five years, I find myself back here again, a place I typically return to only when my emotions are overwhelming. Oops...

Over the past five years, life unfolded beautifully, progressing seamlessly, and I, regrettably, took much for granted, failing to appreciate the blessings I had until they started slipping away.

Now, here I am, confined within the walls of a once proud home, now reduced to an empty space, with the only significant difference being the absence of the one I loved, who is now long gone.

It's become evident to me that a home is not just a physical space; it's where you share moments with those you trust and love. A house without the presence of a loved one is just a structure, not a home.

The emptiness is haunting, and my heart feels incomplete, gasping for breath without the pieces it once held.

Recollections of our shared moments flood my thoughts, yet life persists, demanding that I move forward. Some people pass through our lives fleetingly, gone forever if we miss the chance to hold onto them.

I recognize the need to grant you the freedom you seek. I must mature and confront the truth, understanding that not every thought must be vocalized, even if parting is a reluctant choice.

Regardless of how difficult it may be, take care and let go when I am gone. Perhaps...

Sunday, March 3, 2019

I am back, again...

Can't believe after 3 years, i am back to here again.
Everything changed.
Started working life, ended my study and begin with a new type of life.

The life by which, so hectic...
The life by which, so materialistic...
The life by which, so dreadful...

Life changed, when we entered certain stage of maturity.
You gain liberty but you lost attention.
Careless, reckless, lifeless...

2019, i hope it is fine...



Can time just stop moving?!

Thursday, January 14, 2016

One more...

Finally, semester 151 is defeated. 1 more semester to go~ Yay!

For this semester, it's kinda busy as both research and coursework components launched simultaneously.
I still need to go to the lab during study week! Such a horrible experience~
However, it's a great semester that i believed i have expressed the best of me during the final examination
Now i am so excited to know about the result for this semester!

Anyway, for next semester the subjects are not as fascinating as this semester and i still need to submit thesis at that time as well.
I can't imagine my life for next semester as it will be fulled with lab component. I just wish everything goes well.

Now is the semester break and yet i still couldn't return because of my research project.
I want to go home~
I want to settle this project ASAP~
I want to graduate~

Friday, July 3, 2015

Final Year Semester 1...

Just complete my second year last exam.
This semester is full stop with disappointment because i guess i ruined my Immunology.
I believe i can perform better in the exam but the time was just too short for allowing me to do so.
Immunology was so essential for me but i didn't answer it very well!
Anyway, what i am supposed to be glad of is i have accomplished the course for human anatomy and physiology.
It has been a long journey which full with obstacles and yet i overcome all of them!
Besides, i guess i did quite well in that. Hence, for me, life is always in balance and equilibrium.
But still i wish i can score better in Immunology. :(

However, now i am no longer second year! I am a final year student!
There is 1 more year to go to stay in USM main campus, i guess i will be reluctant to leave since there're too much memories which lie at this place.
But who can stop the time? and i have much more to pursue afterwards.
Separation is always undeniable and inevitable in life.

Meanwhile, final year is the most exciting year with most of the subjects that i look forward to register for.










Microbiology of Pathogens is the subject that lure me to pursue my bachelor degree in microbiology and i am so excited to deal with it.
Besides, this semester got quite a number of subjects that are closely relevant to medical field and this makes me much more excited.
I wish to further my study in infectious diseases and epidemiology and this semester subjects no doubt, has a very very important impact towards my future.
Furthermore, final year project begins at this semester and it is a very crucial and challenging subject that trained the students and equipped them with all the necessary skills to deal with scientific researches.
I wish i can acquire the topic that i like, i.e. medical microbiology, medical parasitology, medical entomology or immunology relevant project because i have stronger enthusiasms towards these fields.

I hope this semester go much more smoother than last semester and gladly, no more university subject left!
From this moment, i can fully focus on biology related subjects!
Much more challenges to come and i shall wait for their approaches and dedicate the best part of me to deal with!
That's all for these semester (about 4 months).
P/S: 6th of July is my 1st day internship, i shall tell more story regarding internship afterwards. All the best! :)

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Preparing for my forth semester.

Finally i have registered for my forth semester subjects as listed below.


As you all can see, this semester is fulled with very challenging subjects which closely related to medical field.
However, i am truly passionate and enthusiastic to have more exposure towards these subjects.
I am so excited to begin my forth semester, which is the last semester for second year.
But there's a subject that i truly hate, i.e. Bahasa Malaysia IV.
Frankly speaking, it is a tough subjects with very high percentage of failure, i just hope i am not going to be one of them.

Next year i shall be doing final year project and of course i am going to graduate so soon.
It's just too fast, the time flows.
Besides, after this semester, i am going to proceed my internship in USM Health Campus and shall be dealing with medical parasitology and microbiology stuffs.
This is to ensure i gain maximum of skills, experiences and knowledge which are truly precious in my field.

Finally, my semester 1 results going to be revealed so soon on next week.
I hope i can see everything goes fine and i get what i have been paid for.
Studying microbiology is a bless of my life as i truly enjoy the moment dealing with those stuffs and i like to read a lot about microbes.
Well, i guess that's all for today.
Cheers! :D

Saturday, January 17, 2015

First Post in Year 2015...

Finally i managed to accomplish my 3rd semester and i guess i have try my best for this semester.
Trying to recall back, it has been a long semester that's full with challenges and of course tons of lab reports.
Anyway, i am proud of myself to finish this and i have quite unexpectable results the coursework.
The results are as follow
- Mycology A
- Bacteriology A+
- Virology A
- Entomology A
- Techniques in Biotechnology A
- Invertebrate Zoology A+
- Ethnic Relation, the results didn't announce but i guess i will acquire and A or A- at least.

Well, i am very satisfied with my own performance for the coursework part and also the final.
I wish i could see what i'd expect for my final which will be announced provisionally on 5.2.2014 and full results will be available on 17.2.2014.
In 10.2.2014, i need to register for my next semester subjects and as what i have done previously, i have done the the planning which are listed as below.

I hope everything will go on smoothly and there's about 1.5 years more for me to graduate with my bachelor degree.
Lastly, Happy New Year and all the best to everyone. :)

Thursday, September 4, 2014

2014/2015 USM Microbiology Course Structure.

USM just upgraded the 3 years course for pure sciences and most applied sciences to 4 years.
Hence, there will be a big change for their course structure.
Well, what i'd like to talk about is B.Sc. Biology (Microbiology) course structure.
Below are the synopsis:

So, i guess this big change made the course looks so much better. We can take elective and minor altogether at the same time.
Need 120 and above credits to graduate.
Previously most microbiology students mainly focused on viruses, bacteria and fungi.
However, in USM, they began to emphasized that microbiology students should know more about helminthes and protozoa too. Since these two creatures have a significant impacts towards our society and environments.
Well, i like this course so much.
Anyway, congratz to those juniors who are able to pursue this course, you all were very lucky to acquire such magnificient course structure, Well in fact i felt envious too :p
Finally, good day and good luck to all of you!

P/S: If anyone of you are interested to pursue this course and you have any doubts or enquiries, please do not hesitate to PM me. I am very willingly to solve your doubts. :)

Friday, August 8, 2014

Preparing...

Finally, i was able to register BZT211 and now my course registration eventually come to an end.
It's time for me to prepare what shall i bring for next semester and i need to begin my reading for next semester subjects as  the subjects are kinda heavy for next semester.
It's fun to take Biology subjects and this semester, I've registered for 6 biology subjects and 1 university subject (ethnic relationship)
It's kinda crazy to do like this, because it will be a serious burden for me to take about 2 major core subjects simultaneously!
I wish this semester i was still able to do well and last 2 semester.
It is excited to study Biology, but it is exhausted at the same time, Hehe.

Meanwhile, i was teaching my cousin biology too.
It's been long forgotten memory for me in form 4 Biology syllabus esp. those human physiology part.
I need to revise again and again to ensure i was able to explain well to him.
I wish i could be an excellent teacher :p
It's fun to acquire such experience though!
And it felt great to be as a teacher, Haha.
It's getting late now. I guess it's time for me to stop here.
Good night everyone~
To be continued...

Monday, August 4, 2014

Registered!

Finally, i've registered for the next semester subjects.

I want to register for BZT211- Invertebrate Zoology instead of BOE201- Biological Instrumentation.
But the system does not allow me to do so.
It said i haven't fulfill the prerequisite subjects, in fact i have already fulfill those subjects and pass all of them.
I have already informed School of Biological Sciences, and they told me it was the technical error, which will soon to be fixed.
Hence or otherwise, i can register the subjects manually in the office if this problem persists.
So, i'd feel like try it again when i return to USM.
I wish everything just can be fine.

Anyway, It has been a long journey to reach here.
Appreciate everyone and everything that support me from behind to achieve such wonderful moment and glory.
I've finally registered for the subjects i dreamed of!
Cheers~

New semester, new beginning. I must do better than what i did last sem.
I will perform the best of me during this semester.
To be continued...

Friday, August 1, 2014

Step into the new month - August.

Results announced. and I am quite satisfied with it.
Finally ended my 1st year degree with 1st class honour laureate.
Still, i wish i can do better next time for the 2nd year.
To maintain such honour.

Now it is August already, last month for me to stay here, at my hometown.
Going back to penang so soon.
Feeling like reluctant to go back  but excited for the next semester to proceed.
Quite biased yea? Hehe

Many people asked what have i done and what i plan to do in this semester break?
Part time job? I seek for perhaps but i have a lazy body. Lol
Tuition teacher? Yes, yes. I am doing this right now.
In fact i felt like i want to do sth much more significant and meaningful to me this semester break.
I'd feel like want to revise all the things that i learnt in 1st year and expose myself to the things that i am going to learn in 2nd year earlier.
So that my life will be easier in this coming semester.
Besides, for me, i am taking this course not only just to graduate, but i want to be knowledgeable, be the one true and qualified biologist or microbiologist perhaps.

This field suits me too much. I was glad that i could encounter it before i get regretted in my entire life.
3 more days to go to register course.
Still in dilemma whether to go into more applied field or more on theory field.
In fact, i'd prefer more on theory because i love to read.
Reading make me feel secured, make me feel like i have improved, compare with yesterday.
Anyway, applied field is more useful for future career.
Still considering. Indecisive.

Lastly, Nothing else to mention. Full stop here.
All the best then!
To be continued...

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Relieved.

The provisonal result just annouced.
Fortunately, everything goes well.
I guess i was blessed. :)



Oh yeah, our major is fixed and the result also announced by today.
As expected, and blissfully. This is my major.


Well, next friday will be the real final result.
Again, i pray for the most success that i could have achieved.
All the best for everyone :)

To be contiuned...

p/s: from today onwards, i will be a junior microbiologist, how glad is that? :p

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

July...

It's almost middle of July now, my results are going to announce soon!
Well, i stayed at home for more than 2 weeks already.
Yet, i felt like i haven't do anything that's beneficial for my own.

Try to recall back what i have done so far,
Yes, i have been watching the drama "game of thrones".
It was extremely interesting and i love this drama series.
I have been teaching my cousin, as a tuition teacher for Biology.
Form 4 biology, kinda long time memories for me.
I have been playing games, conquered a mountain, etc. etc.

I planed to begin my 2nd year subjects study in this semester break.
Next semester is kinda heavy and tough.
Need to pay more initiative from now on.
Hopefully i can make it!

Next week, i wish i see all P!
Next next week, i wish i see all A! :p
Blissfully, I wish luck is always by my side.

Good night world!

Monday, June 23, 2014

Home!

After 1 year of pursuing my bachelor degree in USM,
Finally i have a break.
Will be home for about 2 months.

1 more month to go to check for my 2nd semester results.
I wish everything can be fine.
Afterwards i need to register my 2nd year 1st semester subjects.

I decided to apply for the subjects as below:
-Mycology
-Bacteriology
-Virology
-Entomology
-Entomology Practical
-Biological Instrumentation
-Hubungan Etnik

Seems like a bit heavy for next sem.
I look through the sources that i need to study for next semester.
I guess it is not as easy as what i've expected.
Too many things, besides too many new things.

Need to have some rest at this moment.
Used up too much energy for semester 2.
Enjoying my holiday.
Cheers!

p/s: happy holiday everybody! :)

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Let it go.

Finally, i finished my last paper.
I am satisfied with what i did anyway.

I like to advise myself:
Never look back when i step forward.
Care for the future rather than care for the past.

We shall always look forward in order to improve ourselves.
Despite looking backward to reminisce about the past.
Why don't we just learn from the past and get better in the future?

Let bygones be bygones.
Gloomy, desperate, worries, tensions.
Let all the sadness flows.
Let all the happiness stays.

Cheer up and be optimistic!
Finally, my sunshine's days are going to approach again!

p/s: All the best for those who're still taking exam!

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Last paper for sem 2, 1st year.

Just finished my genetics paper.
I have finished 7 papers for this semester so far, 1 more paper to go.
Afterwards, then i will be full with liberty!

Food for thought huh...
I guess i have performed quite well and i am satisfied with what i have done.
I wish everything can goes well and my cgpa can be maintained.

Second year  is coming, i am going to be a JUNIOR SENIOR.
Besides, i am going to register for microbiology subjects so soon.
Bacteriology, Virology, Mycology.
So excited to think about that.

Lastly, I hope the last paper is easier...
Keep fighting everybody!
Long sem break is coming soon!

p/s: i will be going back to kelantan during 22 June. Will be staying there about 2 months, I wish i am not to be moulded! Should look for some jobs or prepare for next sem subjects perhaps?!

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Approaching the end of 1st year.

My 2nd semester final examination is going to come to an end.
2 more subjects to go. Genetics and TITAS.
Still got a lot to study, but i felt like want to relax myself, and that's why i am here. :D

It's been almost 1 year to be in USM.
Look back what have i done so far, i realized i paid a lot of initiatives.
To approach here, with petty pace.
Life's not easy and we need to overcome more and more obstacles when we grow up.
I am getting stronger and stronger as my life. Trained me so.
Regardless academic, thought, social or whatever.
I always need to ensure myself that i was improved if compared with yesterday.

Continue with my genetics study.
Struggling with 2 more subjects still.

Good day.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Back!

Great day everyone!
It's been quite a long time i never pay a visit here....
Well... now i am back to here again for a short visit...
It's mid 2nd semester now... i'd to talk about what i have been doing during 2nd semester.
Basically these are the courses that i registered for 2nd semester...
As you can see, this semester i need to face another mathematics...
CALCULUS, it drives me crazy... i thought by doing biology degree we need not face such kind of subject any longer, but who knows it ends up like this!
i just don't like maths! :(
That's why i am suffering still in this semester!

The other subjects quite okay,
Cellular Biochemistry, i love this subject as i gain quite a lot of knowledge via this subject, it linked to medical, industrial and etc. etc. a very nice subject to study!
Genetics, this one we need to be hardworking to read more, it required a wide knowledge background,  But it is very interesting too though...
The practical for biology and chemistry is the one who really make me busy this semester, every week also need to write 2 reports, the cycle keep repeating, every week doing the same thing, i was quite fed up, but i must get used with it since this is the life of scientist perhaps!
TITAS... need to recall back form 5 history and more than that of course, i dont think i like this subject much, since it is totally unrelated with my field! :(
English... this subject gave a heavy stress to me since quite a number of works need to be accomplished in short time, like individual oral presentation, job interview, listening test and writing test, it is quite stressful and we must be well prepared in order to get great mark!

and i guess i gradually can experience the feeling of being a biologist...
I do like to be a biologist and again i want to declare that i did a right choice during the course selection after my STPM!
and i also love my life here and i love my university, USM! :D
2nd semester duration is quite short as time flies...
i thought i were just begin 2nd semester who knows, now already mid sem...
i must be more hardworking after this to avoid from being left behind!

i am excited and looking forward for the coming semester, the semester that makes a a junior microbiologist! :D
Bacteriology, Virology and Mycology...
So excited! Haha...
Anyway... Got to go... Busy busy! See ya :)

P/S: For those of you who're interested about my course or USM, u can PM me via facebook or personally email me via my email address for further enquiries. I'd get back to u as fast as i could, thanks! :D

Friday, January 3, 2014

Organic Chemistry.


Just finished my KOT 121- Organic Chemistry I Exam.
Felt like i am not talented in Chemistry.
Besides, i am also not so passionate and enthusiastic to study Organic Chemistry.
So, i wish this will be the last time i took Organic Chemistry paper.
And next semester i am going to have Inorganic Chemistry paper still.

Anyway, i felt extremely passionate to study about Biology related things.
Looks like i have made a wise choice during course selection.
Each time i also felt like want to know more about Biology stuffs.
And this kind of feeling never exist towards Chemistry during my University life.


Meanwhile, I did my Organic Chemistry not so well today.
I wish at least i can acquire 3.00 and above and i will be satisfied for that.
The coming subjects will be Academic English (Ignored) and Ecology.
I was preparing to give the BEST SHOT!
Hopefully everything can goes well.
All the best everybody! :)

p/s: Let the sadness flow, let the happiness stay.
This is the signifcance of life.
Let bygones be bygones.
Never look back once you have try your best. No more disappointment left.

Monday, December 30, 2013

New Year Approaching.

It's has been quite a long time i haven't pay a visit here.
So, how's everything going to everyone? Is everybody fine here? :)

1 more day to reach the new year, 2014.
2013 was a great year for me.
Basically...
I'd to express my gratitude towards the fate for giving me such opportunity...
to further my study in USM and also acquire the course that i like it so much...
Anyway, it's not easy despite what i was studying are the things that i like so much...
These are subjects that i took during this semester.
As you can see, this is the examination slip, and i am going to attend the exam so soon...
Struggling still... for 21 credits...
Because of BOI 105, i can only go back to celebrate Chinese New Year during 30 of January.
During the day that we are going to have reunion dinner!! How lucky?!! =.=
BOI 105 is a field trip that we are going to carry out in Muka Head and also at USM Biology Lab for 2 weeks!

Anyway...
I was glad to be here. To be the university student for 1st semester.
I like to study about Microbiology: Bacteria, Archae, Fungi, Virus, Protozoa, etc.
I like to study about Zoology: Porifera, Cnideria, Ctenophora, Plathyhelminthes, Nematodes, Annelids, Arthropods, Echinoderms, Chordates etc.
I like to study about Botany: Bryophytes, Pteridophytes, Coniferophytes, Angiospermophytes etc.
I like to study about Biostatistics: Hypothesis testing, ANOVA, Regression, Correlation, etc.
I like to study about everything i  need to except for Core Entreprenuership, which is a compulsory subject to be taken.
I hate it because it's totally useless for me and i feel like i gain nothing for taking such subject.

Even though it's so and so busy, still, i tried to search for the enjoyment within the university and around Penang. :p
K and Cinema are undeniable :D

New Year is coming! Happy New Year and have a great year 2014 :D

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

USM TAJMA Test

Before we enter USM, TAJMA test must be done in order to make us understand more towards our own personality and suitable career for the future...
So, below was my results, it's kinda accurate :D


Personal Profile :
HIGH SCORE
You tend to be someone who likes to use your mind and think critically. You seem to be highly sensitive to the environment and people around you. In most situations, you like to make deep observation toward situations or things that happens around you. You also seem to always do deep analytical thinking before making any important decision. You tend to be someone who possess high leadership traits. You like challenges, able to convince people and always promote a dynamic personality. In most situations, you prefer to take the lead role rather than being a follower. You are driven by the need to be productive and active. You are most likely to demonstrate a high level of self-resiliency in terms of physical, mental and emotional. You tend to be highly motivated and disciplined in your work. You are self-motivated and is not easily influenced or manipulated by others. In most situations, you are willing to work long hours and under pressure.Often times you are tough-minded, independent, determined, committed and perseverance. You tend to be someone who is very warm, kind hearted, emphatic. You also seems to be sensitive and responsive toward self and other people feelings. You seems to be very interested in doing community work and helping other people. You are easy going and friendly. You are very likely to demonstrate a very high interest in activities that challenge your mental abilities. In most situations, you do not like to do routine work or activities. You are likely to present your views or opinions critically. You have the capacity to do critical or abstract thinking. You tend to be a highly task-oriented person. Tends to suggest a high achiever and adventurous person. You demonstrate a high level of self-confidence. You may not like working with others who are not equally as achievement oriented. You hold on firmly to your belief and will not let go until your goal is accomplished.
AVERAGE SCORE
You are likely to be quite assertive in most situations. At times you can be a demanding and domineering person when under pressure. But on many occasions you are able to compromise and follow the group decision. You have the capacity to present yourself well in social settings. You tend to be calm and careful when dealing with other people. However, you may be quite expressive when you are needed to do so. Likely to be quite friendly and warm with people who are close to you. You are most likely to be quite open-minded and get along well with others. However, you may be someone who is creative, imaginative and artistic. You are generally felt more comfortable to communicate with people who are close to you and in small groups. You are likely to be a quite responsible, dependable and trustful. In most situation, you tend to be quite willingly to sacrifice your time and effort to carry assigned jobs and duties. In most situations you tend to be willingly perform your duties and tasks well. However, you may compromise your integrity when it involves personal interest.
LOW SCORE
However, you tend to be a positive thinker and demonstrate a high level of self-esteem. You present yourself well in public and projecting an air of self-confidence. You are not easily perturbed with critics and negative perceptions towards you. You are self-assured and certain of own ability and success. 


Your 3 Letter Code : ISR = 44 28 18

Career Dreams                          Lecturer,Microbiologist,Researcher

Your Suitable CareersDentist, Food Technologist, Dermatologist, Research Dietitian, Safety Engineer, Mineralogist, Ophthalmologist, Osteopthic Physician, Paleontologist, Sanitarian (Professional and Kindred), Acupressurist, Audiologist, Cardiopulmonary Technologist, Chiropractor, Airport Engineer, Documentation Engineer, Transportation Engineer, Exercise Physiologist, Food Tester, Private Duty Nurse, Surgical Technician.

Your Suitabel Educational FieldAudiology/Hearing Sciences, Business Systems Analysis and Design, Cardiovascular Technology/Technician, Chiropractic (D.C., D.C.M.), Econometrics and Quantitative Economics, General Management Information Systems and Business Data Processing, Medical Nutrition, Osteopathic Medicine (D.O.), Perfusion Technology/Technician, Pre-Dentistry Studies, Radiation Biology/Radiobiology, Speech-Language Pathology and Audiology, Transportation and Highway Engineering

Suggested Activities During LeisureProspecting / Hobby Mining, Wildlife rehabilitation, Adult Education, Contract Bridge, Historic person fan clubs, Historical organizations, Medieval studies, Peace Organizations, Printing history, Self-help groups