感触。。。

很多朋友都离开了。。。只剩我。。。对我而言那个幸运的我。。。

上帝真的待我不薄。。。原本以为要出外去读书了。。。

但我还是去不成。。。

还以为要开始学会自立。。。展翅高飞了呢。。。。

但。。。我还没那个机会。。。

本来以为会很不开心。。。

但是仔细想想。。。有哪个地方比家里温暖？比家里更幸福的呢？

哈哈。。。邓伟晨。。。你他妈的真是好狗命！

原本以为要借此机会。。。去明白及感受。。。家庭与妈妈的重要性了呢！

看来你还得等2年。。。

不知你该开心还是难过。。。

今晚。。。我在想。。。如果我即将离开。。。

如今的我会感到怎样？

或许是恐惧及担心吧。。。

最温暖。。。最富有安全感的地方。。。

仍然还是家。。。

以后出外读书的我。。。

不晓得。。。会不会。。。

因为想念家人而偷偷哭泣。。。

在中秋节当天望着月亮。。。吟起李白的静夜思。。。而默默地掉泪呢？

2年。。。我会好好珍惜和努力。。。

今晚的夜空。。。很空虚。。。

是不是有人偷偷在哭泣？

无言。。。

世事岂能尽如人意？我惟有乐观点。。。才能活得更好吧！

Matriculation的成绩公布了。。。

名单上面没有我的名。。。

我看了。。。不晓得怎么反应是好。。。

但。。。我知道。。。

我身边的人都尽力地帮助我了。。。

谢谢你们。。。

无论结果是如何。。。真的很谢谢你们。。。

我现在。。。是用平静的心情。。。写这篇日志的。。。

我很惊讶。。。因为我并没比想象中难过。。。

邓伟晨。。。看来你真的长大些了。。。

哈哈。。。STPM。。。我来了。。。

上帝既然为你关上这扇门。。。肯定还会为你开出另外一个窗。。。

我知道自己没有那个运气去得到别人拥有的。。。

但我会努力的！

加油！邓伟晨！

我还是会为了我自己的梦想前进！医科。。。我是要定了。。。

Biology, Chemistry, Maths-T, Pengajian Am

4个A。。。我也会很努力追求你们的。。。

相信我。。。我会很努力很努力的！！

对不起。。。大家。。。我没事了。。。

嘻嘻。。。

命运。。。

今天开始。。。我会尽量写上生活里所发生的点点滴滴（托霉牛的福）。。。

哎。。。今天去玩POKER了。。。

我不算大赢家啦。。。赢了几颗炸弹和贱嘴的称呼回家而已。。。

但很庆幸。。。我还是被神明鼓励读医科咯。。。^_^

神明说我也适合读律师的。。。

其实我也这样觉得的啦。。。哈哈哈。。。但。。。

以免未来会有更多被炸死的受害者。。。我还积点德。。。不当律师好了。。。

至于其他的3个小妹妹呢。。。

大嘴就不说了。。。她上辈子不知做了什么事。。。

怎么她就这么好运啊？羡慕ing。。。=.=

而其余的2个小妹妹。。。

都不是很方便透露啊。。。哈哈。。。汗！==||

别人的好事我就会公告全城。。。

出丑的事更不要说。。。

但。。。至于命运的事。。。

还是埋藏在心理好~

命运其实掌控在自己手中。。。

至于怎么去改变。。。都是由于自己的毅力与坚韧！

明天再续。。。肥羊和老与乔女人的故事。。。

The Genesis...

There will always be a new journey after passing through a low tide of life...

We should always be hopeful to believe something...

then only hope will come to us...

Escape...

1) Medicine

2) Dentistry

3) Forensic Science

4) Pharmacy

5) Biomedicine

6) Physiotheraphy

That are the courses that i may pursue...

Well...i am worried...there is only 2 days left...for the result to be announced...

what should i describe time?

fly? jump? walk? run?

no no...it should escape...

Time escapes too fast...

I am in dilemma still...

wondering...what should i do...

if everything doesn't flow through my will...

what am i supposed to be?

meanwhile...

oh gosh...there are too many interviews that i am going to present...

how nice if everything is without interview...

and we get it immediately?

haha...anyway...

good night everyone...

good night ms. monica...

thank you for waiting for my post...

^_^

Gross Mistakes...

Interview and interview and interview...as a result from my greed...

Totally headache...

I don't know how to face so many things...

I wish i could have some prevailing ideas to overcome all of these...

It is not fun to be in this type of situation okay?

My relaxing and holiday moods are totally gone!

i need to prepare a lot and a lot things that make me grow old faster...

i don't know what to do...

Next time...when we do something...

remember to think...before we do it...

we might be oblivious or neglect from something that is so essential...

just like what i am suffering now...

It is not good to be greedy okay?

As a conclusion...think for the ultimate result...before you act...

Divination...

You see benefits way yonder but can hardly get them...

Just like rowing a boat upstream...life will be difficult...

However... supporters are available in the future...

Overall, will experience hardship first, but properity eventually...

圣阴圣 第十八号

打石得玉 淘沙见金

金炉焰火 气象皆新

工夫艰难 小船过渡

前程有路 贵人相投

That was the divination that i obtained from the temple...

Interview....

Complicated mood...just feel like so lazy to prepare everything...

20/4 will be the interview date for PPC of Biology...

i feel like so lazy to prepare so many things...

suddenly feel like don't want to go...

if i used to know i will get matricualtion...

i will not go for so many interviews...

wasting all my time (>.<)...

i hate this type of mood...

please...away from me...

anyway...ppc and stpm...still i will choose stpm...

please don't blame me...

as i still aim for medicine...

but not a teacher!

The Birthday...

The 18th Birthday of our Ms. Monica...I am here to wish you Happy Birthday!

Well...we know each other since form one...

i am very pleased to meet you...

i will not forget the sound of your laughing (>.<)...

how presumptuous (self-confident) you are...

and how optimistic you are...when you facing problems...

Anyway...i wish you could be the successful one and achieve what you dream for...

and...don't keep on wearing the hairband, i don't think it looks attractive...

hope you can have a lovely birthday today! cheers~~

Another...Break of Dawn...

When you are totally desperate with your life...try to be optimistic...

soon...you will realize...another hope will come to you...

Don't know what to say...today has 1 bad news and 1 good news...

the bad news is stated in the previous post...

the good news is...i am available to attend Program PPC for Biology interview!

even though i know it is quite tough to obtain it...

but still i will try...

and i will take it as a very good experience...

pray for me okay?

Desperate...

Trying to change the reality...but eventually...desperate still...

I am extremely desperate with what i am facing now...

JPA scholarship NO!

even

UPNM also NO!

why eveything become like this?

am i so unlucky?

I am wondering...

the last hope for me...

matriculation...please...

at least...leave a hope for me...

Otherwise...i am not going to study anymore...

Insomniac...

Life is ephemeral...but still...i don't know how to appreciate it...

Tension...tension...and tension...

i got too much to worry about...

i don't know what should i do...i am incapable of action to stop all of these...

What does life signifies?

it signifies happiness...right?

we survive for jovial but not tension...

life is short but still i don't know how to appreciate it...

Actually...the only hint to appreciate life is just to be optimistic and shun from tension...

Just try...

and your life will be more and more valuable...

Changing...

The rose wilts just because you received it from someone...

your heart was broken just because you have a beginning with someone...

everything changed...we never knew...

Never ask me why...everything was changing...

we was too rash...

we never think of the consequences when we do something...

Love makes us blind...

Love makes us sad...

Love makes us changed...

Too much...and too much...

I am worried and afraid to think about the subsequences...

please...let everything goes well...

without hatred ok?

Missing...

If you want to go...then i will just let you go...

but make sure u won't come back anymore...

You leave...without let me know...

i hate...what have u done...

i just want you to know...

everything that i hold in...is everything that i can let go...

Never ever look back when you move forward...

please...just go...for me and your own...

Ephemeral Fantasy...

We cannot be happy all the time...but we are capable to be optimistic all the time...

The fate is fair enough...it won't allow someone to be lucky all the time...

so...if you are unlucky and facing a lot and a lot of problems...

dont feel sad...as good lucks are going to reach on your side soon...

Remember...the only hint to be succeed is to be persistent and optimistic to believe hope...

Melancholic...

As expected...but still i feel sad...

Well...the fate will not follow our desirable all the time...

i get desperate with today matters...

1stly...about the contest...

2ndly...JPA scholarship...

even though since early i've already know that i was so hopeless to achieve what i wish for...

but still...

i am sad...sad and worried...

please...leave a hope for me...

at least...

i know there will always be some hopes...

as long as the break of dawn exists still ...

remember to cheer up...

well...ipta interview is coming soon...

lasting for 7 days...i guess i need to do some preparations instead of feeling sad here...

pray for me ok?

Themes...

There are 2 type of musics in my blog...

if u heard eternity memories of lightwaves soundtrack...that mean you are hopeful...

if u heard 1000 words soundtrack...that mean you are in desperate mood...

i am worried...for tommorrow....

firstly...JPA scholarship...

even though i know i am quite desperate to get it...but still...i hope for it...

secondly...Acer Iconize competition...

i hope i can gain a new laptop...haha (greedy ya? >.<)

i am quite confident to win...

but who knows?

what will happen...

please pray for me...

Beginning...

Trying to avoid from reality...trying and failing...

The beginning of life is starting from the break of dawn...

Dawn brings multitude of hopes to all of us...

I love to look at the dawn...

It feels so peaceful, so hopeful and makes me...

Enthusiastic and zealous for another day...

Just because there was a beginning, then only ending will exist...

This is my theme of life...as my own...

Was namely as a "dawn" in chinese...

This blog is specially designed to all my friends who are going for further study soon...

I hope we can maintain our friendship and get to know each other condition...

through this blogspot...

Well...i hope everything goes well for you all...^^